Gerilyn
@gerilyn818
Active 4 years, 9 months ago-
Gerilyn posted a new activity comment 4 years, 9 months ago
I’m so sorry for your loss of sweet Daisy Mae. I understand .. it’s a very hard loss. I lost my best girl in August .. it’s not easy and you are not alone. ❤️ -
Gerilyn posted a new activity comment 4 years, 10 months ago
Hi Toni. Yes, that is Faith you see. Thanks for the compliment. Although I cannot take credit for Faith’s beauty .. she always received compliments. Her breeder held onto to her a little longer, hoping to show Faith but Faith was not interested in beauty pageants lol.
It will be four weeks tomorrow that she passed and I have regrets and feel guilty about having her euthanized. She would have still been here hadn’t I made the call. It seems everything reminds me of her. I can still smell the top of her warm furry head. I fall asleep with tears looking at her picture. Faith was euthanized at home and so the place she took her last breath is a constant reminder. I quietly tear up at the supermarket when I see her favorite snacks .. both dog and human. She loved Honey Nut Cheerios .. our nightly shared snack and a shared English muffin in the morning.
I have a Lab and I feel bad for him. I know he misses her too.
I’ve had several dogs that I loved that passed and I cried and was very sad but nothing like I’m going through with Faith. She was my favorite .. we had a different bond.
I’m thinking about getting a puppy (same breed) but I have mixed emotions. I feel like I don’t deserve to care for another because I failed Faith.
Thanks for listening and for your concern .. Gerilyn-
Dear Gerilyn, you must still be very sad, it hasn’t been very long, and who knows when those tricky triggers like seeing a favorite food or toy will bring you to your knees. Ah yes, the guilt and personal reprimands for “failing” our beloveds – that’s understandable, yet you know the angst and deliberation that went into making the decision to let Faith pass in peace was solely for her benefit, and for which I know she was grateful to you. That is truly a selfless, generous, caring and loving decision, and saying goodbye in the comfort of home with her loved ones was all with her best interest in your heart. Please, HOW did you ‘fail’ Faith? It seems you extended the ultimate gift – anything but a ‘fail’. I hope you will allow yourself the same kindness you showed her. We certainly do. We DO have special bonds with the pets, and people, in our lives. In her book, Griffin’s Heart, Reagan talks about her special bond with Griffin even while she had, and continues to have other loving pets she adores. I’ve had special bonds with different pets over my life, too. Bringing a new pet into your home won’t diminish what you had with Faith, nor will it replace your special bond. But, it does give you and the new pet a chance to form your own relationship. You’ll know if and when the time is right for that. It may be just the thing to cheer up your other pup, and can’t help but brighten your days, too. Gerilyn, you are a kind person and I hope you allow yourself to grieve, and enjoy the wonderful memories you and Faith created. We’re here for you and I hope we hear from you again soon. Sending you big HUGS…..
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