Donna
@416westadams
Active 3 years, 7 months ago
Well what’s new is I’m struggling terribly through these holidays without my baby I had to memorialize her so I took her portrait over to PetSmart and had a picture of her me and Santa Claus taken for the very last time and since I’ve done it I feel worse empty heartbroken I feel no love for anybody or anything cuz the hole in my heart is so big there’s no room for love I wish it would pass I really wish you were here she was my life and my life has been broken apart with the loss of my baby Bell I keep hoping to wake up every day feeling a little better but I don’t and I’m struggling terribly with it I really feel like sometimes I would just like to go to sleep and never wake up and I wouldn’t have to deal with this heart pain this heartache just grief.. here’s the picture of Bell’s portrait me crying I had everybody crying at PetSmart and Santa Claus as my last picture of her and Christmas time every time I look at it my heart breaks even more so I thought I’d share with you just in case anybody else would like to do it well the pictures are done now but I’m going to print them out and put them on her memorial and maybe that will give me some comfort I don’t know I’m just heartbroken and I just want to be alone I don’t want to be around anybody I just stay home I go to work I come home put my pajamas on and I just lay down and I I looked at her portrait and I talked to her I sing to her and it hurts so bad I wish this hurt would go away but this is the update on about Mancini belly I love you so much and I miss you with all my heart your mama View
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