Donna
@416westadams
Active 3 years, 7 months ago
Well what’s new is I’m struggling terribly through these holidays without my baby I had to memorialize her so I took her portrait over to PetSmart and had a picture of her me and Santa Claus taken for the very last time and since I’ve done it I feel worse empty heartbroken I feel no love for anybody or anything cuz the hole in my heart is so big there’s no room for love I wish it would pass I really wish you were here she was my life and my life has been broken apart with the loss of my baby Bell I keep hoping to wake up every day feeling a little better but I don’t and I’m struggling terribly with it I really feel like sometimes I would just like to go to sleep and never wake up and I wouldn’t have to deal with this heart pain this heartache just grief.. here’s the picture of Bell’s portrait me crying I had everybody crying at PetSmart and Santa Claus as my last picture of her and Christmas time every time I look at it my heart breaks even more so I thought I’d share with you just in case anybody else would like to do it well the pictures are done now but I’m going to print them out and put them on her memorial and maybe that will give me some comfort I don’t know I’m just heartbroken and I just want to be alone I don’t want to be around anybody I just stay home I go to work I come home put my pajamas on and I just lay down and I I looked at her portrait and I talked to her I sing to her and it hurts so bad I wish this hurt would go away but this is the update on about Mancini belly I love you so much and I miss you with all my heart your mama View
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Donna posted an update 3 years, 7 months ago
Well what\’s new is I\’m struggling terribly through these holidays without my baby I had to memorialize her so I took her portrait over to PetSmart and had a picture of her me and Santa Claus taken for the very last time and since I\’ve done it I feel worse empty heartbroken I feel no love for anybody or anything cuz the hole in my heart is so big there\’s no room for love I wish it would pass I really wish you were here she was my life and my life has been broken apart with the loss of my baby Bell I keep hoping to wake up every day feeling a little better but I don\’t and I\’m struggling terribly with it I really feel like sometimes I would just like to go to sleep and never wake up and I wouldn\’t have to deal with this heart pain this heartache just grief.. here\’s the picture of Bell\’s portrait me crying I had everybody crying at PetSmart and Santa Claus as my last picture of her and Christmas time every time I look at it my heart breaks even more so I thought I\’d share with you just in case anybody else would like to do it well the pictures are done now but I\’m going to print them out and put them on her memorial and maybe that will give me some comfort I don\’t know I\’m just heartbroken and I just want to be alone I don\’t want to be around anybody I just stay home I go to work I come home put my pajamas on and I just lay down and I I looked at her portrait and I talked to her I sing to her and it hurts so bad I wish this hurt would go away but this is the update on about Mancini belly I love you so much and I miss you with all my heart your mama-
Donna, I’ve read this several times and I hope that in writing your feelings, you find some relief from the pressure in your heart. Grief is real and the pain runs deep. Perhaps you can deliberately think of the good times, write down the funny things she did and look at pictures of her enjoying her life of love with you. The sad thing is, our pets have their own life spans and are only “on loan” to us, never for long enough. But Donna, would you not have wanted those times together? Even knowing you had to part one day, I suspect you wouldn’t trade those. These darn holidays can make things even harder and I hope you will continue to share you feelings and more photos with us, and that you allow good memories to come to you. She would want you to celebrate your lives together, and I hope you can do that. We’re thinking of you. {{HUGS}}
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Donna posted an update 3 years, 9 months ago
Unfortunately not much is no the hole in my heart is bigger the 16th of this month will be a month that I lost my fur baby she was my best friend my soulmate my service cat I made her memorial I do everything I can to keep her still alive in me I miss her so bad I’m not eating I’m not sleeping they put me on sleeping pills to try to get me through this I miss her so so much and it’s not getting easier it seems like the longer she’s going the worst it is I have a hard time functioning she was the best little girl she was my life and I feel like I don’t have a life anymore without her
