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    Maureen posted an update 3 years, 4 months ago

    I recently lost my Romeo and I am so broken. It happened so suddenly and I didn\’t even have a chance to do anything or even say goodbye. It was a normal morning. He woke up his tail was wagging as usual, smiling and happy. I cuddled him and then let him out to peeand he came back I. And went straight to his bowl to eat as I stood thereunder made my coffee. We always just went right into our bedroom to settle in, watch the news and he would come over to get a taste of my coffee too. But, not this day. As I walked in he was just standing there staring and I said \”Boobah, c\’mon baby, let\’s go\”. He didn\’t move and as I passed him I saw that he peed. I thought he just had a little accident and I said \” what happened baby, you just went out, did you have an accident\”? He never did that so I looked at him, and he didn\’t look right. I got scared and picked him up and just started to panic and kept asking him what was wrong….he let out the most pitiful cry and then I saw him losi g co trol of his little head and his eyes were rolling around . I put him on our bed and started crying and hugging him and then he pooped. I knew what that meant,but, I couldn\’t think that he would be dead,but, he was. All this in a matter of seconds. I screamed and cried and I couldn\’t believe that he was dead. He was just fine seconds ago and now he\’s gone? No, no, no….please God no. I was numb and out of my mind and panicky and picked him up and ran across the street to my brothers house screaming that Romeo was dying, but, he was already gone and my brother knew it it was just me who couldnt believe it. 💔
    Romeo was 14 and very healthy for his age according to his Vet who we had just seen. He said Romeos blood work was great and he\’s probably be around for a while longer. So, I never even gave it thought that Romeo was dying in that moment. I don\’t know what caused him to die. I never had a chance to say goodbye. My heart is shattered. Romeo was my whole world and he saved me by coming into my life when I did t want to live anymore. I never loved anything as much as I loved my boy and I don\’t want to be in a world without him. I don\’t care if I ever wake up again. I\’ve been trying to overcome this horrible pain, but, I have lost my will, to do anything. I don\’t want to go anywhere,see or talk to anyone and just want to be alone. I\’ve been part of a few of these grief groups and although it does help to give and receive comfort from people going through the same thing, my grief still overwhelms me. Thank you for listening and I wish everyone here on this site peace and comfort for healing of your broken hearts. 💔
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      Toni Noel replied 3 years, 4 months ago
      Maureen, nothing I say can change your grief but I hope it helps a bit to know how sad I am for your sudden and shocking loss. It seems Romeo didn’t suffer a long, lingering passing, and that is something to be grateful for, for his sake. It’s truly a heartbreak that our beloved friends are only on loan to us, never for long enough – forever wouldn’t be long enough. I agree it helps to talk and receive support and kind understanding, and I hope you will try our group April 20th. Your lethargy and desire to be alone are things I have exoerienced, too. People want to be helpful but I just wanted to be alone for awhile. It may benefit you to write a letter of love and joy to Romeo, and we have a journal/book that may help you : https://www.faithfulfriends.com/shop/griffins-heart-pet-loss-book/
      Please accept my sympathy and a {{HUG}}. And know we are here for you.
      💔 Toni